I’m changing my name and
moving to Puerto Rico.
I am, henceforth, going to be called Angelica Diaz and my address will be 123 Calle de La Playa.
Worry makes even a sunny day seem grey and foreboding. It makes me want to pack a bag and just put distance between myself and my problems. I am not always an anxious person, but every now and then I get overwhelmed and I feel the urge to run away and hide. Somewhere with a full bar.
I am worried about a friend who is going through a really hard thing. I am anxious about taxes coming up ( I always owe). I am hoping our rental company will reimburse us for part of an almost seven hundred dollar electric bill that stemmed from a busted outside unit. I am nervous that I will never be in a healthy relationship because I tend to get scared and bail. I have to testify in court tomorrow against the guy who broke into my neighbor’s car.
Logically, I know my problems are small and not life-or-death.
I need to count my blessings.
I am healthy.
I have food and shelter.
I have found a church and small group where I am learning, growing, and feeling loved.
I am not trusting God today. I seriously don’t want to write any more blessings. I am thinking maybe I need some prayer?
Sorry this post is so depressing.
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Your problems are not small because they’re important to you. Sometimes minimizing them is a way to push oneself away from them. However, it can also create problems with blaming oneself for sweating the small stuff. It’s good that you’re concerned about this, because it means you’re looking out for yourself.
While I can’t say much about the rental unit or about what your friend is going through, I could try to put your mind at ease a little about testifying. The most important thing to do is be honest. You can’t give any wrong answers. You’re there to tell the jury about what you know. Sometimes it helps to think that you’re there to just talk to the jury, like when everyone at a big table asks you what you recommend from the menu.
As for everything else, it’s going to take time. You can’t resolve it all at once. Your friend will need to get through whatever it is. Your taxes will come and go. Other people will need to help with the bill. And as far as relationships go, you seem like a decent enough person that any guy would be lucky to have you around for whatever time you both have.
Best wishes to you as you get through all of this.
What an incredibly kind and thoughtful response. Thank you.
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Don’t be so hard on yourself..we all get anxious and overwhelmed and want move to 123 Calle de la playa…I’d probably be your neighbor..lol. take a breath, pray, and give it to God. He’s got u. 😊👍❤☝
Thanks, friend. 🙂
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Maybe we all just need a festivus. A day of complaining. I worry that if I don’t worry, things will never get better. How is that for neurotic!
Ha! I love Festivus!