If the fruits of the spirit were sarcasm, sassiness, procrastination,  dad jokes, baking, and Netflix I would be the perfect Christian.

Why can’t I earn gold stars by watching Gilmore Girls? I seriously want to crawl into the monitor and be Lorelai’s younger sister who moves to Stars Hollow. I could date Jess. He’s probably matured a lot since then. I could eat at Luke’s and be BFF’s with Sukie and go to town meetings…It doesn’t say anything bad about my life that I was want to live on a set, right?

I’m feeling bummed. After my big, grand declaration of independence from caring about yet another guy letting me down, I have to admit I’m disappointed.

I feel like things don’t work out for me very often. I feel like everyone else’s lives progress normally, while I’m stuck here..still single, still waitressing, still in debt, still not down 25 pounds.

Sure, I can bake bagels from scratch. But, somehow, I think there must be more..

I want to be satisfied with what God has given me. I know there are lots of action words that need to happen in my life..abiding, gratitude, perseverance, service, Zumba, self-control…

I can’t be anyone but myself, but I can work on becoming the best version of me.

So, I’m going to pour my heart into finding out how I can live the life God wants me to live. I know the basics (I’m writing a book on it, for Pete’s sake! (Who is Pete?)), but I need to solidify the areas I need help in, live out the commands of God for each area, and wait for the magic to happen.

There’s no pretty bow at the end of this post. I have a lot of work to do and I’m not feeling particularly holy or energetic. Do y’all go through slumps like this? Why can’t I just have it all together, already???

God is still good. There are four new Gilmore girls mini-movies coming to Netflix soon.

Ang